Sometimes I wonder if we was right in getting married
Did our hearts really call out to one another
Is my soul his mate and his mine
Or did we improvise
Are we just a compromise?
I’d like to think that our love is true
Wait, was love even there when we said ‘I Do’?
I’d hate to admit it but I doubt that be the case
There were no butterflies
No tears of joy, uncontrollable laughter or happy smiles
I was anxious, nervous with worry and stressing
A wedding day shouldn’t be a burden, should it?
I’m too old to believe in fairy tales
But I always dreamed I’d find true romance
Never saw myself going to bed angry or waking up even angrier
Thought the man that was constantly in my bed would also be residing in my heart
And maybe he is
Unknown to me he’s got the key to my heart
But it’s been a bumpy road since day one
Maybe that’s why I’m not feeling anything at all
I want hugs and kisses, pleasant surprises, a compliment or two
Instead I get complaints, insults and comparisons
I’m no good at this, even worse at that
I’m not inspired, motivated or desired
I doubt I can last long like this
My heart is breaking and hurting
My soul is dying
I’m wanting to fix this thing that’s broken between us
I want to fall desperately in love
I’m wanting a love affair
One where I’m super close to losing my mind
And I want it all with the man I married
I want this affair to be with this husband of mine.